Don't nobody know my troubles
2003-08-08 | 4:11 p.m.

Last night I had a party. Marissa and I split a case of Corona and polished off the whole thing. She paid, and refuses to accept compensation.

We went on a mini walk and drink. Things turned ugly around 4 am. Michelle wouldn't give me my cigarettes back (which is technically fine because I'm not a smoker) and it spawned into a fight. A fight of epic proportions.

Marissa laid into Michelle for me. Nobody's ever stood up for me like that, because people think I'm the type that doesn't need to be spoken for. Marissa laid into Michelle for HOURS on my behalf as well as for her own reasons. Kaitlyn listened intently with me, and she had tears in her eyes because she was so proud of Marissa coming out like this. For all the times Michelle's told me I'm fat (I'm not, she's borderline anorexic though) or too pale or too this or two that, for all the times Michelle's poked the tiny bulge that may slip over the front of my jeans, for all the times Michelle's pointed out our zits or too much makeup or not enough makeup. Marissa laid ALL of it out on the table, and Michelle caved.

Michelle's a fucking wreck. She definitely has some thinking to do. I would like a sincere apology, not the tearful begging she was doing at 7 this morning. There's years of suppressed anger there from me, feeling like I was never thin enough or tall enough or tan enough to be her friend.

Marissa, I owe you more than you'll ever know. If I can walk away from that hellish night with anything, it's the hope that someday I'll stand up for someone who couldn't defend theirself, just like Marissa did for me.

I guess I'll be okay.

-S.

three molecules.

while walking around this tattered old house today.

i came upon three molecules looking my way,.

i stared at them for ages,.

and checking all my gauges.

i proceeded to examine them with .

instruments of great dexterity..

but as i was looking for answers,.

through bacterias, amoeba's, and cancers.

i came across something that simply .

couldn't be..

one molecule was red.

one molecule was blue.

but the third molecule my friend, was me.

-Jack White

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