The girl in the mirror is running.
2003-11-12 | 11:27 p.m.

I'll be frank.

Lately I'm depressed and completely devoid of any self confidence at all. I'm living in my younger, blonder, taller, out-of-this-world beautiful sister's shadow. I feel ugly every second of every day. To think about it brings tears to my eyes and to ignore it makes me feel like I'm lying to myself. I would give anything to be able to convince myself that I'm beautiful again.

I've been all over the province lately with no place to call home. Everywhere I go is foreign and awkward.

I'm looking at the future, at all the paths, and none of them are calling to me with open arms. Everything is ominous and strange.

I feel like I've died a little in the past couple weeks.

-S

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