Is this the fucking Jamie Kennedy Experiment?
2003-11-28 | 12:59 a.m.

My confidence is returning, slowly but surely. I've lost 5 pounds since Sunday. Calm down; I've been sick. But yeah, having those 5 pounds off feels incredible, I already have more confidence onstage. I never want to be one of the bone-rack dancers we see so much of, but... this just feels right.

Jeff had another party tonight! I just got in from it, it was way too much fun in my opinion even though I wasn't really drinking. I skipped dinner and had really intense rehearsal from 6-10 tonight, and I have to work tomorrow, so I slipped into the adult mode for a night. I just don't drink the way I used to. Is that wrong? It looks wrong as I type it. It feels very not right and sort of sad, in a funny way. Next topic.

I got bangs today. I asked for Hilary Duff meets Kurt Cobain and she gave me exactly that. I hadn't had a haircut since August. I have crazy long wild woman hair now, and I'm glad to get it fixed up a little. Everybody noticed the "change" which I laughed at, because it's just hair. They all went nuts, which I didn't expect.

RANDOM THOUGHT: One of the greatest lines tonight was on the way to the party, in Anita's car. The high school that I'm apprenticing at is hosting the 30 Hour Famine this year, so a bunch of students did that. I should have, it would have been simple seeing as I haven't eaten much lately because I can't TASTE anything. Anyhow, Marissa uttered this retarded little gem with all to much enthusiasm: "Oooooh man, I heard that they were doing that stupid 30 Hour Famine thing today, and I was all going to drive there and kidnap you and say, 'No way is Sam doing that, there is a PARTY tonight!'"

Also, Ben and I worked out what went on a couple weeks ago when he was very drunk and accidentally made me feel like shit by comparing me to my sister. He and Kelly and Sean agreed that they like me more than my sister. Sorry, but I have to make a note of this here so I can use it against Ben later. They all agreed that she complains too much and that she's too uptight. And she wears too much makeup. Kelly said she thought I was "really really pretty" which is always cooler than having a guy you've known forever tell you you're "hot as heeeeeeeeeeell". Ben, whenever you stop being drunk, we will finally fix this issue. heh.

I lub my friends so much.

Eh, what else... oh, wow, I got hit on tonight, I think. I don't pick up on those things very well. Marissa and I were making the final rounds at the party, saying our farewells and collecting drunken hugs and whatnot, and the host pulls us over. He's like "Hey, I want you to meet (guy 1) and (guy 2). These guys are awesome. Uh..... yeah, they're really cool."

Guy 1 just stood there looking like something on the cutting room floor at Abercrombie and Fitch headquarters. Guy 2 gave me a weird nod because we went to grade school together. Jeff proceeds with "SO YEAH, this is Marissa, this is Sammy, and boy are they ever hot. ... .Well, glad everyone had a chance to meet and -"

I cut in and politely excused Marissa and I. While flattering, that is just too bizarre. I swear that when I turn 20, I'm going to walk into a movie theatre and they're going to be playing my teenage years for a paying audience.

Wow. This entry makes me sound like such a fucking narcissist. I'm not. If I was that great, I wouldn't have made it home before 1 am.

I have more to say but I'm too tired to say it. Go give some e-love to her

-S

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